Brothers: My Strength.. My Life

Brothers: My Strength.. My Life

If there is one thing that I am blessed in abundance with, is LOVE & SUPPORT from my family. Thankfully my destiny gave me loving & caring families – Parental as well as In-Laws.

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I grew up with a clan of elder n younger brothers who have pampered, cared and even spoilt me like a princess, and best Part is..They Still Do. My elder has been my best friend, my strength, my guide and my Hero always. He is the man, I grew up looking at. Wr were quoted   examples of Sibling Rivalry and our fights were so bad that no one really wanted us around together. But the truth is that I always wanted to be better than him, always wanted to do all that he could  and I never could be. He is still the best person I know and He will always be my hero and the first person I ll look out to.

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When I got to know that I am marrying into a joint family with all boys & just one girl, I honestly was nervous as hell. But thankfully I walked in there for more brothers who one again Pamper, Love & even Spoil me BUT like a Queen this Time. People ask me so often, how did you adjust in a big family of a small town, after been living alone for 10 years in Delhi.. I dd, because I got them as perfect friends. Its been 8 years i am married, and till date I don’t have any circle outside my family, but thats because I never needed one.This clan of mine is all i want for my vacations, my parties or even my vent outs.

 

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Anxiety – It’s better to understand than Question

Anxiety – It’s better to understand than Question

Anxiety:

Psychology gives its definitiion as “A mental health disorder characterised by feelings of worry, anxiety or fear that are strong enough to interfere with one’s daily activities.”

But Its not so simple, its not so easy, it not only interferes but ruin daily tasks for few people. Its a combined feeling that dreads one to do anything for that matters.

“Can you remember that fear, when you just slipped over something..? So the time between you slipped and before you hit the ground (or save yourself) , that half a second which creates a terror, a fright, a sense of panic, agitation and what not is so heart stopping. Anxiety is feeling that fear ALL DAY”

Its like you need people to talk, but you don’t wanna talk…

You wanna feel safe and happy, but you love your miserable self…

You want friends, but you are scared of socialising…

Everything bothers you, but you don’t care about anyhting.

You want to be alone, but you are too scared of loneliness…

Anxiety is feeling everything together, but then not feeling anything and numbness takes over your Body and Mind.

Going Blank doesn’t help either.

Well Being with someone with Anxiety Disorder is real tough, you have to keep giving in without a fail.. but being with the disorder is unexplainably tough too..!!

A Lot can happen over CHAI too…

A Lot can happen over CHAI too…

 

 

A LOT CAN HAPPEN OVER A “CHAI KI PYAALI”.. Good prompt guys..It l be fun writing about something which means a lot. But before that I would like to thank Dilpreet from https://bhangrababies.com/ for introducing me. Do check out her awesome writeup of our Chai-A-Thon at https://bhangrababies.com/2017/12/15/chai-aur-biscuit/

CHAI… Though I am myself a Chai addict now, but still Chai connects best to my mom and our childhood memories. Her Morning Teas , Me dipping my Parle-G in it and having.

THATS’ my very pretty supermom…

Like most of us I am all what my mom is. Though not even 20% of her perfection but still all that i know is her and her efforts. Her little talks over that cup of Tea used to teach me some or the other thing always. A perfect attitude to life.

I used to always wonder how she used to shoo away any stress with CHAI., how she handled any situation after getting charged with CHAI.., how any hunger pangs used to get settled over few sips… myself being her follower used to take few sips too, just to feel that magic what she used to get but always I ended up scratching my head to find my answers coz that tea never gave me the kick she used to get.

I grew out of her protective MAA KA ANCHAL and went hostel for graduation and all. In college it looked COOL to be a coffee addict than TEA, so I adapted that as well..!! And though even coffee never gave me my answers over my moms superpowers after the CHAi Sessions, still I stuck with it for years and years until Migraine forced me to stop consuming coffee anymore.

8 Years back when I stepped in a completely diff phase of my life, it was then I realised how inseparable I was from my MOM.. Every step I used to take, Every Reaction I gave, Every smile I faked was her reflections in me.

With Varun, when I restarted my CHAI affair, It was then I realised what CHAI meant to her, It was then I got my Answers… Chai wasn’t the kick she got , It was the mechanism she had build to connect to her Power source. CHAI breaks used to be the time, she needed to bounce back.. Its her strategy to reload her mind with never ending strength. She never backed out from any situation that came her way and that was because she knew exactly how to handle her mind and heart. She always knows and sorts her priorities very clearly.

Me, now being in a phase of life, where truck loads of responsibilities, pint of sacrifices, sprinkle of difficulties and a tons on emotions play around, I feel that connect with mom and her CHAI THERAPY has also reached another level.

Well..!! thats my CHAI story, little but yeah i connect with it well..! I take pride when I see Myself following her strategy, her way of self therapy.

Love you Mom.. I mean every word by heart when I say I have been a follower

You wanna read More Chai Stories.. see here what Khyati Tiwari story is on her personal Blog kgtspassionatepursuits.blogspot.in

Share Yours too in comments.. would love to read

Stay Chirpy and stay tuned

The DURGA in Me…

The DURGA in Me…

It brings me immense pleasure to share that I, along with 24 other WOMEN bloggers are celebrating #9daysofwomanhood throughout Navratri. I thank my friend and co-bloggerAnubhuti Sen Sharma for introducing me. I am a huge fan of her blog Cries and Laughter where she talks about her journey with her little one. Here is what she thinks of todays prompt.

I would like to introduce my readers to my friend & co-blogger Veena Regit Her blog talks about interesting facts about her parenting journey and product reviews at The Reading Momster and her blog about the prompt is here

The Prompt for today is ”Identifying the Avatar of DURGA whom I relate to”


Durga – the goddess of power and strength, through all her forms, encompasses the essence of salvation and sacrifice.
A woman plays different avatar of Durga in her mundane life but every woman does have a dominant characteristic which embodies one of the avatars closer to heart than the others.
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I have always felt closer to the sixth avatar – Kushmanda
She is the 4th avatar and she was the commander chief chosen by other Gods in the war against demons snd she is considered as the creator of universe, the one who is fierce and powerful in order to kill the demons, will change her avatar from a calm and beautiful Parvati to the destroyer of evil.
  • I believe in fighting with the evil power that tells me I cannot achieve something.
  • I believe in destroying the darkness of ignorance and spreading the joy of a free soul.
  • I believe in living the life of a fierce woman who would be standing tall for anyone who I can help.
  • I believe I am creator of my own world, my own Universe. I have the power to make it the way i want it to be.
  • I am the One who gave Birth to another 2 AVATARS of Durga who will take charge of their own lives very soon.
  • I aim to make my Girls fearless and to keep them away from the darkness of dependancy and weakness. They ll be as fierce as every AVATAR of DURGA.

Durga is a woman who is strong, powerful, emotionally strong,  fearless, knows how to stand for her rights. She is the One who can not be suppressed anymore unless she wants to surrender for love. She is any other woman living her ordinary life and giving beuty and wisdom to the whole world.

Motherhood changed me in an Better Person…

Motherhood changed me in an Better Person…

She keeps coasting her fingers over the ugly stretch marks.

She listens to the deep breathing of the baby cocooned in her heat.

She sits looking at the little pieces of herself all night sometimes…

while sometimes she also misses her sharp Body curves

She smiles in the dark at the peculiarity of it all. One moment she was about to fly for a vacation with Darling Husband and the next thing she knew was she didn’t get her period. In a state of panic and nervous excitement, she ended up taking a pregnancy test in the toilet of the clinic where she had bought the test from. Somehow, she didn’t end up feeling crazy and lost like she thought she would. She was the epitome of calmness following the stunning realization that in the world of black and white, she knew it was the rainbow she had been looking for, lurking in her womb..

That was the start of my motherhood. The day 2 little chickpeas started growing inside me, I could feel the power of Unconditional Love. It was a difficult pregnancy with lots of Ups and Downs but with every ‘Up’ I was happier and with every ‘Down’ I became stronger and more positive to bring them to this world in best of health.

When Pooja told me about this Wonderful Blog Train she was hosting on my favourite topic. I was all excited and decked up to board over. Thanks Karuna from Name Place Animal Thing  to give me a hand to board the Train. I abhttp://nameplaceanimalthing.in/solutrly loved her Story

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MnM (Meher n Myrah) are about to turn 3 and these 3 years I have discovered a whole new self. If I turn back few pages of my life, I see a completely different person narrated there.I have changed a lot but major changes are like:

  • Changed Perspective:

For 10 years I stayed away from my parents, so I have been a tough and self dependent person who could eat or drink anything and everything. Infections, travel dangers and all looked mere talks to me.

All of sudden, this perspective changed with kids. Suddenly Maggie or Canned Juices became so unhealthy. Something that falls on floor is like a bomb now. All healthy foods are now my best admired bunch. It hurts me deep if they fall, It tears me if they get sick. The injections have become so painful from last couple of years.

That’s Motherhood.. a part of your heart is roaming out of your body and all we do is to look after that part , to make sure its healthy ad happy.

  • Making A Little Peace with Life.

My mom is very near to a OCD mindset. Too perfect with everything. Anyone drops to her place unannounced also, the house is in perfect shape and you are greeted very warmly with a smile. So I always wanted to achieve everything as perfect as hers.

But with kids now, I have made that peace with life. I am fine if my house is a mess , I am fine if a day food is not so well cooked and I am fine now if I look like a scary movie actress. I am OK with little this and that , with a little imperfection and with a little less glamour in myself and in others too. That’s what is my next biggest change.

  • I Do Not JUDGE anymore:

Being a mom brought this most beautiful change in me. The world is so much better place now in my eyes. I somehow understand the fact that everyone deals with a lot in their daily routine. Bringing up a baby and then dealing with rest of the world in so overwhelming sometimes. So at least we can spare the judging and Let people be.

  • Priority Shift:

From a party loving person to a Movie Marathon at home

From a all time ready look to a messy bun look.

From a working Girl to a Stay At Home Mom

From a Hard Core self-shopper to an online shopper for kids

So many changes happened but all happily and effortlessly. None of these happened with any compromise. This is what I love now. Looking at babies enjyoing movie in my lap is more fun then to leave them home and go out alone

Don’t you think, Its so beautiful to be a mother. The changes that happen are all we embrace. Blissfully unaware, my babies are growing in beautiful GIRLS. They lie beside me, taking away as much warmth as they can, snuggle deep and float away like a balloon on a mission amongst the blurred colors behind their eyelids. On some nights, I watch them lying on their chest, occasionally breaking air in sleep, snoring with mouth open, yawning and then slipping back to sleep.

I think I will never allow a moment of insecurity or doubt to creep into there consciousness. To bring them up as good human beings, who are content with what they have. I wish GOD grants me that much wisdom and strength.

AMEN.!!

That was my little piece on How I think I have changed after being a mother. There are many more moms who are sharing their stories.

I am part of this blog train started by Pooja Kawatra of Mums & Babies and she has networked to bring together 41 moms across the GLOBE. (Meet the 41 moms here. Pooja has also shared her own perspective on this here.

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Next Mom boarding this train is Neha who is a beautiful soul with a little baby boy and has amazing website Sharing Our Experiences where we can find answer to almost everything that we look for during parenting.

Happy Reading!!

And we made through 37 Weeks…

And we made through 37 Weeks…

It brings me immense pleasure to share that I, along with 24 other WOMEN bloggers are celebrating #9daysofwomanhood throughout Navratri. I thank my friend and co-bloggerAnubhuti Sen Sharma for introducing me. I am a huge fan of her blog Cries and Laughter where she talks about her journey with her little one. Here is what she thinks of todays prompt.

I would like to introduce my readers to my friend & co-blogger Veena Regit Her blog talks about interesting facts about her parenting journey and product reviews at The Reading Momster and her blog about the prompt is here

The Prompt for today is ” My Delivery and Baby.”


 

So As you read about the pregnancy we had, let me take you a step ahead. The whole Pregnancy we were scared of risks involved with carrying twins and also a couple complications came our way.

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Me being fond of capturing everything wanted to have a maternity shoot right in 9th month so we l=planned it when 37th week was about to end. We did a super awesome one and then can you believe the very next day, I woke up with very High Blood Pressure. May be it was the stress or the exertion that happened all day long.

Headed to the hospital and O GOD..! my BP was fluctuating heavily. My very adorable doc looked tensed for the first time as she could not operate with those fluctuations and she could not let that be. I was not responding to Meds and So was put on some IV.

So those few hours already prepared me of what being a mom means. I was under so much guilt for getting that shoot done, I was dying of the thought of my Babies Health. How could i be so careless, just for the sake of some fun.

Everybody was trying to calm me down and my thoughts were working the other way. I also wanted to relax as what I was going through was just ruining the situation. I tried to pray, meditate, relax but nothing was ok. The suddenly i was told by the nurse, its settling. Yes, my BP was settling and coming down. OMG!! I could hug her for saying that. Tears rolled down my eyes and my mom quotes her SO MOMMY QUOTE, “Maa Banna Itna Asaan Nahi Hai”. 

Well till next day I Relaxed and prayed. At 2 Doctor Announced twice, “It’s a Girl”. Both the girls were little under weight but rest all looked sorted. I was clutching my husband’s hand so tight that it was all red and marked by the end of my C SEC. It was just some unknown guilt that I had for being careless.

Well All did well and I was amazed to know that My doc had just sent me false messages of settled BP. I was still not OK. Eveb at the time of Surgery, she had called for lots n lots of blood to be sure.

But I think all the prayers we all were doing worked and all went well.

And I got my Meher n Myrah (MnM) in my hands

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The Soccer Pregnancy

The Soccer Pregnancy

It brings me immense pleasure to share that I, along with 24 other WOMEN bloggers are celebrating #9daysofwomanhood throughout Navratri. I thank my friend and co-bloggerAnubhuti Sen Sharma for introducing me. I am a huge fan of her blog Cries and Laughter where she talks about her journey with her little one. Here is what she thinks of todays prompt.

I would like to introduce my readers to my friend & co-blogger Neha Sharma Her blog talks about interesting parenting mantras and her journey with her son NEMIT at Growing with Nemit and her blog about the prompt is here

The Prompt for today is ” My Pregnancy”

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The day we learnt about twin pregnancy, we didn’t know how to react. It took us almost a week to digest the fact and almost 9 months to properly getting ready.

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Thankfully we had twin parents in our family who guided us a lot all through. I am sure every single pregnancy is special. They are all  difficult as well as fun in their own ways. Having a twin pregnancy was no different. It was a ride through lot of Allergies, Infections, Injectables, Medicines, Pains , Pampering, Photoshoots, Planings and what not.

There was a different experience everyday but one thing that I ll never forget and  also which differs totally from a singleton pregnancy was the soccer game that used to be an evening routine of my girls.

I was in 19th week of pregnancy when a cousin was getting engaged and a full Karan Johar Movie style party was in its full swing when i felt something fluttering in my stomach. Initially I felt its just some other perk of pregnancy but when it repeated in about half an hour, I  understood it was something I was waiting for. The so talked about ‘BABY KICKS’ and it was a moment of Euphoria because now I started feeling something inside me which had a life, a movement, a mood and a response too.

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Eventually, in few days I could feel them as proper kicks and not just flutters. By the end of 20th week they both were all active and made it a routine to play soccer or Boxing we can say with each other not realising that it was mommy’s tummy they were hitting on.

Very soon, they both fixed their heads down and that was when my most difficult stage started. They both had their legs towards my ribs and that phase of play used to be highly painful. Even though me and my family used to wait all day for that time to come as it was an assurance that both the babies were having gala time together, but when it used to occur which was almost once in 2 days that they both were active together, it used to be highly painful sometimes.

There was one other funny thing that used to happen and I laugh missing it. The hiccups. Sometimes both of them will get hiccups together. OMG..!! 5 minutes sometimes even more I used to feel a regular interval jerks. Somedays I used to cry it out to my mom that please do something to stop this, but they were still inside, we could not distract them or give them water to subside those hiccups.

It was really a difficult journey full of little problems but every bit is worth, Every bit we enjoyed.